It's been almost 2 weeks since I arrived home from the most incredible 100 hour teacher training with Satu Tuomela, Pip Roberts and Evy Ferraro, and I'm still landing, processing and integrating.
Whoever thought walking the spiritual path would be like walking on a bed of roses was wrong...or maybe right...thorny roses, with a few extra brambles thrown in for good measure.
But, I am not the kind of person who enjoys small talk, and all that surface level stuff we witter on about just to fill the gaps of uncomfortable silence. I am a truth seeker, and I want to know all about the real you, the you that probably even you doesn't know exists. The one behind the everyday mask that we all wear to stay in line with "society's dream".
But when you face the truth (your own and others), it ain't always pretty, and it will crack you open and make you bleed in ways that ache and hurt and feel like they will last forever. But nothing is forever, the good stuff and even the bad stuff.
During these 8 days we ran deep into truth, we felt it in our bodies, humming with the vibrations and allowing it to ripple outwards through movement and sound. My heart ached for others wounds that still felt so raw and I was humbled by the courage it took for so many to show complete and utter vulnerability.
All of these relevant, raw truths...I witnessed them, I felt them, I bathed in them and I arose from them, with more love and compassion than I knew I had space for. My heart broke over and over again, but I learned that our capacity to love is infinite, broken hearts only serve to expand our love for ourselves and each other. We keep stepping forward and moving through, maybe holding each others hands as we do so because we are the same, different but the same.
I came away from this training with so much that I'm almost a little scared in wondering what I will do with it all. But I know time will solve that dilemma, time and trust.
For now I'm feeling into the remembering that every time our hearts break or are wounded, actually what is happening is that we are being offered the capacity for more love, for more compassion, for more liberation, for ourselves and for the collective. And it ain't easy, it's life!! One precious life.